IN THE DEPTH of the void I was lost. In the darkness of the void I stumbled down. In the coldness of the void I shivered. I remembered my deathbed. I though, how am I going to stand before You? You who no soul is worthy to be in Your presence. How am I going to justify my evil ways and repulsive deeds on the Day of Judgment? Anguish troubled my heart. Peace departed from my soul and I became frightened. I looked around me and there was no one to trust, for the void encased my being. I cried out to you, O my Savior. You are my last hope. You are my greatest hope. I put my trust in you. I remembered the days when I was in your presence and your presence extended and filled the emptiness within me. I longed to dwell in the house of my Father once again.
I AM THE only sinner my God and am not worthy to be called Your son, but make me like your hired servant. I have sinned in front of you and these deeds of mine separated me from You. But God, there’s no servant without sin and no master without forgiveness. You do not wish the death of a sinner, but rather that I may repent and live.
I AM ASKING for the abundance of Your mercy; Your mercy that without it no living creature could exist. I am asking for Your fatherly love that’s so strong that you gave Your only son to save me from the bondage of the enemy. I am asking for Your guiding hand, that without its strength I lose my way so easily. I am asking for your patience to be with me and help me up from the weakness of my humanity. I am asking for your spirit that will elevate me and make me worthy to be Your son. And after all this I ask for you mercy once more.
HAVE MERCY on me, O God, and again have mercy on me. Amen and Amen.