I sought after You, my God, and I could not find You. I cried for You but You did not hear me. The tears of sadness and hopelessness troubled my heart, but You did not comfort me. I wondered in my despair, O God, why have You forsaken me? Why did You allow grief to afflict my heart? I could not feel You beside me.
I turned away looking for my happiness elsewhere. I sought after the world and it welcomed me with open arms. I fell into the darkness and I had no savior. I cried unto You, once more, from the shadow of death. In my sadness I wept, in hopes that You would have mercy on me and help me. The evil has surrounded me; with its lusts it imprisoned me. I cried again, I wept for Your saving hand to shield me. I put all my hope in You, O my Savior. I said, “I am Your son whom You have conceived. I am Your son whom You have loved. I am Your son whom You will not allow evil to devour.”
Watch out all you evil for the Lord God, my Savior, has heard me. He has descended into the darkness of my sin and redeemed me. He has given me a new hope and he has cleansed my soul.
He looked at me and I could see tears in my Savior’s beautiful eyes. He hugged me and said, “You are my son whom I love dearly. Your are my son whom I died for. You are my son whom I will save from all tribulations. I have always been with you. I have always cherished you. My eyes have always been upon you. Give me your trust and I will guide you. For I know the thoughts that I have towards you. Thoughts of love and not of hate. I will give you a hope and a future. My son do not turn away from Me for you hurt Me.”
He hugged me once again and I could feel His blood spread through out every cell in my body. I said, “No more will I, in my foolishness, turn away from You. No more will I hurt You, for You, O God, saved me. All my chains You have broken. All of my sin You have cleansed with Your blood. Help me, O God, for I am Your son. Help me, O God, to trust You and to love You. Teach me to call upon You during the hard times so You would save me and I would glorify You. Help me, O God, for I am Your son.”